Positively positive!

Written September 7/2011

Wow, well, things have definitely changed for the better.

first of all I'd like to announce to friends who are permitted to read my blog that I am currently and tentatively pregnant! (even tho I can't spell it) I have never been so happy to see a plus sign in my entire life.

this wasn't taken all willy nilly however. There were some other changes first: Sore breasts, missed period, nausea, weight gain, so after a long discussion about Schrodinger's cat (which I have since had to explain several times) It's easier (and funnier) to watch the episode of Big Bang Theory. I finally decided to put everything in God's hands and have a pregnancy test. and it was positive!!

Things that have changed prior to getting pregnant: first of all I have been told that antibiotics make you more susceptible to getting pregnant and I had been diagnosed with an infection for which I needed antibiotics. ifsofacto (Not sure if this is the meaning I'm supposed to use this for) I was more susceptible...

from an emotional standpoint, ever since hubby and I started doing these tests and appointments, we've been more relaxed and hence have been having more fun in the bedroom which no doubt helped us get pregnant as well.

from a spiritual perspective: for those of you know me, you know I am a total control freak. I've actually had hubby sit on the couch and had him watch as I cleaned so he wouldn't move anything and put anything in the wrong spot. And we've been talking about it in our small group about God taking control and how our lives are little boxes and mine has attack dogs and a laser grid and huge walls with barbed wire and almost.. like there is no way anyone is taking control away from me!that being said, God's been asking me to give him Control. I know! I didn't think it was possible either. so after a lot of soul searching and praying I decided to give the whole baby situation to Him. He promised me that there would be a child in my life and if it has to be adoption, I was willing to accept that.

the truth is I honestly have no idea what was happening and why I wasn't pregnant and then I was. all I know is that God is in control, and he's in charge and he knows what he's doing.

keep praying for me?
thanks!
Rs