So On Thursday my period started and on Friday I had my appt with my OBGYN. This is the second time I've tried this. The first time I had a women's retreat at my church and I was not about to sacrifice that for anything. That being said, I rescheduled for The 29th and everything was good. my appointment was for 11:15 am.
First of all let me tell you how uncomfortable and upset I was at being in a room filled with pregnant women while I couldn't get pregnant. I hated every second of being in that room. I was 15 minutes early for my appointment and so I had to sit in the waiting room with all these women.
Anyway, that being said I moved on and waited. and waited.... and waited...
Laser tag was coming up and I hadn't eaten lunch so I was hungry and emotional and irritable. so a girl comes in behind me and sits down. She's clearly pregnant and she has her son and daughter with her and her sister to watch the kids while she's in. (I'm guessing) it's 11:45 now and she's just come in. so her name gets called and she goes in. I'm like what?! why did she go in when she came in after me? then it dawned on me.
I'm less of a person to this doctor because I'm not pregnant. I have never felt like more of a second class person than I did at that moment. so at 12:15 I told the receptionist I had to go. and I rescheduled for October and I left.
Specialist or not, I deserved better than that. It makes me realized why women in Kenya who can't have children are more opt to kill themselves than to live with the pain of not being able to have children. It would be better than having to deal with that.
Next time we're going in prepared.
anyway, that's my story. still not pregnant. I Have a snob for a gynecologist and now I have to go and see her.
The only bright point in my life is that I'm actually working hard and still trying to lose weight. *shrugs* wish me luck!
~Ruth
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