Fearless

Written the middle of September

So this week we got to go back to Ontario and share our good news with family. Things are good, lots of people were excited, some not so much, but everyone was supportive. (we haven't told everyone, just some people)

My sister freaked me out tho. Turns out someone in our family told her that in our family, boys produce a more difficult pregnancy and that I should pray to have a girl, when I've been praying so hard to have a little boy. of course My brain started telling me, "don't worry about it, The difficulty has nothing to do with the gender of the baby" and "All pregnancies are different" and "God is going to take care of us" but it couldn't get the negativity out of my mind, you know?

So we're driving down the road, and I have my little Ipod on listening to whatever pops on randomly, and This old DC talk song comes on. and as I listen to it, God just starts showing me I really have nothing to fear... quite literally, the song is called Fearless. (apt huh?)

Here are some of the lyrics that really touched my heart:

Patiently You stripped away
The walls of pride that I had raised
You revealed the child inside of me
We will run and not grow old
Soar on wings as I've been told
Together we will fly the heavenlies

Cause out of the noise I could hear You breathing
You came along knowing just what I needed
Turned me around and ya got me believin'
I would die for You

Now I'm fearless with nothing left to hide
All the doubts of yesterday, love has driven them away
And now I'm fearless when I am by Your side
It's forever me and You in this covenant of truth
Ya know I'm fearless...oh yeah

(when it reached this point I think I was in tears)

Some of us leave the vine
Some of us fall in line
All of us have a friend in Jesus
Some of us live in fear
Some of us persevere
Knowing that You are near me, I am fearless

so God totally talked to me, telling me I'm His child and my child is also His child and He's the one in control and I can be fearless.