Rantings of a girl off Caffeine

So I don't even know what to write. my life has been so stressful and my body seems to have said, "you think you have a 22 day cycle? let's see what happens if we change it to 28 days??" so whenever I think I'm late by 6 days, It's just my body being stupid. (which seems to happen more than you would think) (watch, now that I've said that it will go to 22 days or to 30 who knows?)

So it's Lent. and I found I was drinking a lot of coke, actually craving the acidy sweet bubbly taste of Coca cola. so I decided, (as last years was so big, with me being offline for 6 weeks) that I would go off all caffeine for 6 weeks. This means, no Cola, no chocolate, no Coffee, no tea. I think it might kill me.

Granted, I've done the no caffeine thing before, back when I weighed almost 300 lbs, and I managed to lose 50 lbs and do it for 6 months (starting at the end of October and ending mid to late April) which means I made it through Halloween chocolate, Christmas chocolate, valentine's day chocolate and only broke with the Easter chocolate. I am a huge lover of robin's eggs and cream eggs. Which are out right now! *facepalm*

Anyway, the first day of Lent, Ash Wednesday (two days ago?! omigosh it feels so much later than that!!) anyway, I wake up, turn on the kettle to boil reach for the tea bags and go, nope no caffeine. then I just kinda... get lost. like my schedule has been disrupted and I don't know what to do with myself. *sigh*

So the people in the town I live in are super nice and gave me some herbal teas, or invited me to raid cupboards since they got it and no one wants it and I found a really yummy vanilla one that I am looking forward to having when we go into the city on Sunday. *contented sigh* and I'm drinking a lot of milk, which is good for when I do get pregnant.

Today my caffeine, or rather... caffeine withdrawal headache just about left me incapacitated, but I took some mild painkillers/muscle relaxants and it left me loopy which admittedly is much more fun *wink* but again left me incapable of doing pretty much anything short of cuddling on the couch watching bad TV. *sigh*

I should go, this has been a pretty long blog so far.
*sighs*
pray for me?
~Rs.