So here's my thoughts lately, Hubby and I went to a Doctor on Tuesday (today is Thursday) and made appointments for blood work and for me to have my abdomen ultrasounded (that's not a word, but you know what I mean) so here's my issue: Hubby and I have said for the past year that we are trusting God to give us a baby when we're ready. but with this visit to the doctor, I almost feel like I'm jumping ship.
I think of Peter in the boat when Jesus said "peace, be still" and they were all like "who is this man that even the wind and the waves obey him?" it makes me think of a song that I heard, that I'll likely put on so I can hear it again. but I wonder when Jesus was saying, "oh ye of little faith" if I wouldn't be in the same boat (no pun intended) as the rest of them.
this is almost feeling like a lack of faith in God and a placement of my faith in the doctors around me and that feels wrong. but at the same time, I'm thinking, Peter again, when the wind was all crazy that he focused on God and stepped out of the boat right? can I not say that this is me stepping out in faith onto the water and getting my body set up for whatever gift God is going to give me?
*sigh*
I talked about it at Women's Bible Study today and they all kind of looked at each other and then at the floor like they had no idea what to make of the question.
should I NOT go to my dr's appointments? (sighs) this all seems so much simpler on Sims 2.
Asking for Prayer again
~Ruthi
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