A new year, a new attitude.

Well a lot of things have changed since I last wrote. I've opened myself to possibilities and to God and to people and to pain and so much more and it's really given me a new outlook on life.

it's strange to try to put into words, but I'll try my best.

Christmas was dramatic and frustrating and character revealing which is what Christmas should be really.

There's been some serious spiritual attack going on, but my shield of Faith and the rest of my Ephesians 6 armour is holding strong and I know with God I will get through this and he will fulfill the promise he made me.

one of the main reasons I'm writing this is to ask for Prayer again.
I'm 5 days late as of today, which I have been before, heck I've been 14 days late back when I was still a virgin, but other things Have been happening too. Breasts are sore and ankles are swollen. and I'm starting to notice my veins. the veins in my hands have gotten extraordinarily dark. I don't know what that's about. Maybe it goes with the drooling. *shrugs*

I remember having some serious cravings too. lots of eggs. sunnyside up or soft poached with the runny yolk. *shrugs* for that one I've been eating a lot of eggs... we'll have to see.

so I'm going to wait on the Lord as he's asked me to and see what the next month holds. maybe my period will start and this will all be for naught. or I really will be pregnant.

*sigh*
Pray for me please?
Ruthi


Why can't it be this easy?