Mini-Me Monday: Feeling Fat

ugh... you know what you do when you want to feel good about yourself?
yeah, me neither.

Today I had an "I-feel-fat" day.
Surprisingly enough, I didn't turn it into an "I'm-going-to-make-myself-fatter" day which is usually what happens.

I went to the store today. I am in a play and I need brown pants to match the brown coat that I'm wearing. Do you know how hard it is to find Brown pants? 

Anyway, I found pair and of course: tight. *sighs*

so I go to another store. Found a perfect pair in what I thought was my size.. didn't even get them over my hips.

I exited the change room holding back tears.
I hate feeling fat.

I went to the dollar store with my little one and bought some little things including caramels and fudge. (I ate 140 cals worth. Then I stopped. I'm calling it a victory).

I'm usually so comfortable in my skin.
I hated this feeling especially when I've worked so hard to get to the point I'm at.
I can do better.
I will do better.
227.8lbs today.
A turtle.

I'll take it for now.
But It's the highest I'm going to be this year.