How time flies...

Well, things are definitely working faster than I thought they would be. Hubby and I had our first doctor's appt since I got my little plus sign and (after being up all night and worrying that I had gotten a false positive, even tho there have been other symptoms) She confirmed that I was indeed pregnant and that my due date was April 27th 2012 and that I was 9 weeks and 4 days in.

WHAT?!!?! NINE WEEKS AND FOUR DAYS?!?!

Okay, so I got over the initial shock and realized that I am now not only very pregnant, but I am now only 2 and 3 days (well 2 weeks even now) away from being into my second trimester!

It means I'm not waiting for Christmas to tell people! it means I get to tell people a heck of a lot sooner and that makes me more than a little thrilled because I've been wanting to tell like... everyone... all the time.

Halloween is going to be entertaining and the bike-a-thon is going to take some serious work, but at least I know where I stand.

I'm 10 weeks along. I'm uber excited and just waiting for the doctor to contact me regarding an ultrasound.



I want to see him/her/them!!!
I freaked Pat out a little bit. He was relieved when we found out because he knows what this means to me, but at the same time, I told him that just because I'm pregnant doesn't mean I'm only having one. I could still be having twins or triplets and no one knows... at least until I get an ultrasound done. His face went white. It was more than funny to me which I think makes me a little sadistic, but he's been amazing.

He's really been taking care of me.
I am so blessed to have him in my life, He's going to be a great daddy.
Keep the prayers coming!
~Ruthi

Fearless

Written the middle of September

So this week we got to go back to Ontario and share our good news with family. Things are good, lots of people were excited, some not so much, but everyone was supportive. (we haven't told everyone, just some people)

My sister freaked me out tho. Turns out someone in our family told her that in our family, boys produce a more difficult pregnancy and that I should pray to have a girl, when I've been praying so hard to have a little boy. of course My brain started telling me, "don't worry about it, The difficulty has nothing to do with the gender of the baby" and "All pregnancies are different" and "God is going to take care of us" but it couldn't get the negativity out of my mind, you know?

So we're driving down the road, and I have my little Ipod on listening to whatever pops on randomly, and This old DC talk song comes on. and as I listen to it, God just starts showing me I really have nothing to fear... quite literally, the song is called Fearless. (apt huh?)

Here are some of the lyrics that really touched my heart:

Patiently You stripped away
The walls of pride that I had raised
You revealed the child inside of me
We will run and not grow old
Soar on wings as I've been told
Together we will fly the heavenlies

Cause out of the noise I could hear You breathing
You came along knowing just what I needed
Turned me around and ya got me believin'
I would die for You

Now I'm fearless with nothing left to hide
All the doubts of yesterday, love has driven them away
And now I'm fearless when I am by Your side
It's forever me and You in this covenant of truth
Ya know I'm fearless...oh yeah

(when it reached this point I think I was in tears)

Some of us leave the vine
Some of us fall in line
All of us have a friend in Jesus
Some of us live in fear
Some of us persevere
Knowing that You are near me, I am fearless

so God totally talked to me, telling me I'm His child and my child is also His child and He's the one in control and I can be fearless.