So when I was overthinking things and letting my imagination run away with itself (as I have a habit of doing far too often) I got to thinking some pretty negative thoughts.
"what if I'm not a good mother?"
"what if I can't do it?"
"what if I hurt the baby?"
and other what ifs preyed on my thoughts. I wanted to dismiss them but instead I not only allowed them to fester, but I began to meditate on them. I know- I'm disgusted with myself too to be honest.
but the strangest thing happened tonight-The 18th of December. 4 days before I see my baby again. I heard the voice of God tell me something. Now, normally when God wants to tell me something He has to grab my face and point my nose towards what He wants to tell me. but this time He spoke in such a still small voice that it hadn't given me such a feeling of joy and peace I wouldn't have even known where the thought came from. But it was so true and just what I needed to hear to repel the negative thoughts.
"Think about what has happened. Think about my timing. Think about what I've given you. Do you honestly think I would give you this amazing gift at this time, in this place if I didn't know you were ready? Do you think you know better than me? Who do you think you are?"
Wow right?
So should these thoughts Permeate my cerebellum again, I could use your prayers please? Thanks♥
